This is a post of nothing grand.. just me putting some of my thoughts to a page..
For those of you who either have known me well, or know me now one thing you would say about me is “she is a thinker.”
December has always been a month of deep reflection for me.......................
Not sure if it is because of Christmas, or if it is due to the fact that my birthday is near in the New years Eve.. the start of another year................
But I think A LOT about deep stuff this time of year.. reflect on all that has gone on in the previous year.......................
Some of my thoughts bring hurts or unresolved things to the surface and it causes pain, but this year seems somehow different.
I have really learned things....................... Things about myself, about other people, and about life.....................
Sometimes this trait serves me well.. other times it causes a battle within myself...........
But hey its “ME”… and more and more I find I am ok with “ME”.....................
Big losses in my life this year.................. is none but all is well...............
Atleast that is how I have looked at it up until recent months..
I have never really been specific on certain things,
but in this post I will.. hell its my blog.. why have I held back in being specific?
Afraid of hurting people maybe? Who knows..
But one thing I have gained this year in all of my losses is this...................
It is OK and RIGHT for me to set boundries with people...................
I am too valuable to not be treated as such.......................
I demand a certain level of respect now, and no longer see the need for people who cannot recognize what I have to offer.. finally… I am “OK” with it..
I realize in no way is any of it a measure of my worth.................
I know whatever God means for me to have he’ll give it to me.............
And if it takes too much sweat I dont need it...............
It is a well-known fact that human beings are judged by their deeds..............
...............Of no doubt the most demonstrative deeds of individuals are their experience and achievements in life...............
It is very often said that the amount of every person’s achievements indicates the level of his integrity.........
However in my native country they often say another interesting thought that a person should be judged not only by his past achievements but also by the ones he aspires to in future......................
From this point of view I seem to be the person of a tremendous integrity as for the amount of goals I plan to achieve is truly large.............
In the present writing I would like to describe my personal achievements, the ones I already gained in my life as well as those that I only aspire to achieve in future.................
I was born and raised in chennai......., an ancient place with vivid history and ancient traditions.......................
I always loved my country and my town very much..........
However from my early childhood I felt an inclination to discovering something more unusual........in the way expressing things or the things i choose like writing..dancing..............
All the days in my ife It seemed to me so unbelievably free, independent, beautiful, and proud that i have wonderfull family.............
Surely everyone had their "fair" share of experiences in life, may it be failures, achievements, heartbreaks, or fun-filled laughter....................
Experiences change us to be the kind of person who we can be whether we want to or have to.................
Our experiences in the past are always in connection with of who we are in the Present...................
First tooth, first words, first steps, first day of school, first date, first broken heart, first graduation, first job, first child, and the cycle continues..................
I have been so glad for some things that have happened this year..................
I asked myself to remind me of all the great things that are happening in my life.
I thought to sahre on my my blogpage...........
I believe with all my heart that every person has something important to share with this world..................
For some it might be more public, and for others it will be their family or close friends or caregivers, but it doesn’t matter how big or small it is, we all deserve the freedom to become who we were created to be.................
I know that everyday I wake up and do what I can that day, is a great day...........
I dont have had many hard days this year..........
Even today, as I write this I am struggling with high energy and breatholding, but my heart is very content and that’s what I count on....................
I know that if everyone were to be free to explore themselves and find a way to express it, this world would look different than it does today...................
This year has been a miracle for me and I never want to forget how great it has been.
I don’t even know where to start, but I will start with meeting my life partner, my best friend.............. he is my friend who believed that my writings were beautiful and they could be created into a blog like this.. that would be something others would want to see them.....................
He gave my heart joy because he enjoyed reading my writings and he made me to meet some amazing people who helped make my dream come true.
I CAN broadly say in this way........................
Behind every great man, stands a great woman...............
but in my life it's a man...........who changed my life where i am a what iam.....................
becos of him this year...................And I have the greatest carrier that I could have chosen...........
and now In my world he means everything...............and i became an angle with wings...................
He supplied my heart with love it never before found..............and support in my carrier too.................
My life would end if he wasn’t here tomorrow......................
I owe so much to him, i can’t even understand...............................
I am selfish, I get him and all he gets is me......................
Forever will always try to give him what he deserves for eternity.....................
I have beautiful writings that have been given to me by God................
I feel so glad for that chance.............. he is a person who was involved............. gave me a great gift..
It always happens that when you achieve your goal you quickly get another one to follow.....
when I came to hydreabad ....three years ago..............iam a cute little puppy in a hidden stream.................but now ................
my dream came true........ I got oppurtunity to write that i wanted and aimed it to be a proffesion in my life..........
Of course I have many other various dreams and aims in my life..............
I want to become good manager and get a good job, to build a strong loved family and to treat my children the way my parents treated me, to help people and to make the world around me better.
I am sure I will reach these aims some time as for every event there is a certain moment......................
I already achieved some very important things in my life and I am very proud of it...
I have a whole big world around me, and a road of life before me....................
And I will put all my efforts to follow this road and to achieve the best I can during my future life................
Respect for the Individual is an attitude that I carried throughout my life......
It reminds me to value the diversity of cultures and always treat people as I would like to be treated myself.....................
This attitude helped me to master many situations in my life..............this goes on....................ahead for future year's too............
THIS IS MY AUTOGRAPH FOR THIS YEAR 2010.............................which is the best best and everlasting yeay in my life.......................
SANDHYARAJ,
DEC 28TH ,2010
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